Tuesday, May 3, 2011
A letter for my Tegan!
I wrote this letter for my Tegan. I've held on to it for a while now, yet I never had the nerve to deliver it to her. Many of us had put thoughts in paper, thoughts that we would want to share with our lover, but our ego's get the best of us, so we rarely follow our hearts, we are silently crying in the inside. Here is MY letter to my Tegan, whomever finds it can deliver it to her!
I just want to tell you how truly sorry I am for what happened between us. It tears me to shreds and I am losing sleep everyday just knowing that we could have potentially been great together, but I ruined that. I am really sorry for not being able to be myself with you, and not being able to open up to you, what you saw of me was a poor reflection of my broken heart and my lack of trust. My fear of getting hurt again caught up with me this time, only to leave me even more tarnished. I am sorry that I wasn’t able to show you the real me, the me you would have totally adored. I am sorry I denied you the opportunity to get in my head and truly see me for who I am, I am sorry that I did this to the both us. I am sorry I denied myself the opportunity of being with you and I am sorry I robbed you of the chance to change with me and grow with me. I hope to see you again one day. I hope I can offer you more then. I hope that by the time this reaches you it won’t be too late.